I was ready to cry every day, feel like I was in mourning, have depression issues, etc. Really! I'm not kidding! Also knowing how emotional I get I just knew that it was not going to be good. But instead, it has been so easy to have him gone. Not in the sense that I don't think about him, but I don't have a lot of those feelings that I was preparing myself to have.
I do miss Robert and I think about him. A LOT!!! I send 2 pks a week to the MTC for him and his district and write about the same. However...not to many tears have been shed. I figure I will spoil him now while I can, because once he is in Italy it will be more difficult!
The other reason that it has been so easy for me is because there is Brian here at home with us! That little boy! What would we do without him! Yesterday we watched some home videos from when we went to Italy, and when he was younger at his birthday parties, and also him dancing to some Michael Jackson videos. (I'll have to ask his permission before I post them here). But it made us all laugh so much! That little man has grown so much! I sure do love him.

(a few pics from out Italy trip in 2005)
He really has taken care of Gio and I since Robert left! He plays video games with his dad (and is attempting to teach me, but I still don't get it!). He will teach the family home evening lesson, he doesn't complain about reading scriptures at night, and he is a good helper around the house. Also, he is a social butterfly like Robert was, so we are always taking him somewhere. Soccer season has started so we are busy with that right now too! Practices and games, plus scouts, and whatever else he has going on! But we are so glad that he is here to keep us busy. And also his hugs! They are the best!
We were watching "50 First Dates" and the song at the end, the Hawaiian version of Somewhere Over the Rainbow...well, it is one of Robert's favorite songs and when it started to play at the end my eyes started to leak because it reminded me of Robert. (First time that I had cried in almost 3 weeks). Brian came over and sat on my lap and gave me a huge hug full of love! It made everything better!
Thank goodness for that little boy!
Love you Brian and I'm so glad you are ours!!!
1 comment:
VERY cute post... you are so cute to add my link of our biggest loser to your page... Thanks!!! Hope all is well! LOVE ya!
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