June 14, 2009

SOMEONE WHO NEEDS ME

What a week full of different emotions!

Robert was gone to Lake Powell from Sunday evening until last night and I sure did miss him! I realized that I'm glad he will be living at home for one more year! He has become a friend and I love having him around. (How will I ever survive when he goes on his mission???) I don't think I'm ready for him to grow up, so I better start working on that one, because it is going to happen, ready or not!

Brian got his cast off on Tuesday and now wears a brace when he plays, but while in the house he leaves it off to strengthen his arm. He was gone for two nights in a row at sleepovers with his friends and I really missed him too! I realized that he will be just like Robert, a social butterfly, but I'll be ready by the time he grows up, (Maybe!) Though, when he is home he still wants to cuddle and wants for me to be the "baby" so he can take care of me! I'm glad that he still needs me!

I had to go to the doctor on Tuesday because the swelling in my legs and feet didn't go down from our trip. (You should have seen them, they looked like watermelons!) My doctor had me go do an ultrasound on both legs to make sure that I didn't have blood clots, then he ran some other tests. Everything turned out fine, and so he just increased my blood pressure meds and it is much better now. I had all these visions of blood thinners, etc and it wasn't fun! I need to work on loosing some weight and get healthy again! I did that a few years ago and felt good, but didn't stick to it too well. I really need to do better this time, because like back then, I have a family who needs me.

Which leads up to my next thought:
My brother and his wife are getting a divorce (or so it seems). I am so sad about this! I just don't understand how after being married for 21 years you can just say that you love someone, but you can't live with them or want to be married any longer.
I know that there are two sides to every story and I know that I don't know all the sides, but I just don't get it.
My brother has changed over the past few years and says that he is finding himself and is happy (or wants to be happy). I know that my sister in law has had some medical issues, some very serious and life threatening that have affected her, but I think that in the end it comes down to communication, humility, Christlike love, and unselfishness. Four things that I know I need to work on!
I am helping my sister in law out some, not because I'm choosing sides, but because she has no family here and really needs some help.
I can only hope and pray that her and Dave can work things out. Like I said to my brother, don't just look at what you're running towards, but look at what you are running away from as well.

I suppose the reason that I share this is because I'm so very thankful for my wonderful husband, Giovanni! I can't imagine what my life would be like without him. We will be married for 20 years in January and in some respects it feels like a lifetime, and in other ways we were just married yesterday. He is my best friend, my confidant, my everything. Without him I wouldn't know how to go on! And also thanks to him we have two wonderful sons that I'm not ready to let go of yet!
Most importantly I'm thankful for our temple marriage. That doesn't mean that all the work is done, but it gives us something to strive towards and work for together.
If I don't like being without him for a few days how could I ever be with out him for eternity?!

Yesterday driving in the car we saw a double rainbow, and it was BEAUTIFUL! The amazing thing was, one of the rainbows was a complete one! You could see the start and the end and the colors were so vibrant! It made me feel so good inside because it gave me hope.

Hope for a better tomorrow and a better eternity! It gave me something to look forward to and to work towards! Thank you Heavenly Father for that small gift! I really needed it this week!

3 comments:

Wendy said...

Thank you for this post. I need it!

Michelle Walker said...

I think all of us want to leave our spouses at sometime!!! I love the advice you gave your brother about looking at what he's running from. you wise old (not old) sage!I hope everything is okay with your legs!

The Jeffs Family said...

Congrats Robert! What a wonderful accomplishment. I am so sorry to hear about your brother and his wife. I hope they are able to work things out. Thinking of you!